unbearable longing

Hola amigo *hello in Spanish language acececeh*

Ergh....where to begin? hehe. serious tho, kindly out of mind to update a new entry. by all means, recently at night of 15/5/2014 a day before the celebration of Teacher's Day, i went to SMAR's hostel, where i'm about to pay a visit my old teacher, Teacher Yanti. what can i says that i miss her so much, too much till i don't know where should i put the pieces into the exact room. amboiiihhhh. ehhh this is serious okay. back to the story-line, me and Bella (my cousin actually) went out to buy prepaid top-up. Bella drove us to the town nearby. It's hard to us actually to sneak out by the night time. The idea to visit Teacher Yanti came from Bella after all we don't have any idea where to go.

At first instances, i'm afraid if teacher not tends to see me (perhaps she's annoyed with my manner around her) i just guessed  it. either another reasons may be consider. Honestly, i can't guess her mind what she thinks upon me. haha, i always bother her by make a call and messaging her.

Lucky me, i can meet her after asked by the guard. He allowed us to go straight to hostel where Teacher Yanti stay. Bella then drove forward, our car immersed in the darkness where alongside of the road, there was no light pole, difficult to see around. i'm was saying to Bella that "Bro, gua cuak". Of course the excitement burst out. LOL. how could i be such like that?

her. comeiiii kans??? cepat cakap comei !!!!

After parked our car in front of the hostel , i headed towards Teacher's house (house for warden provided at the ground floor), i heard someone called my name "kak nik kak nik", when i turned around most of my juniors back then shouted out my name to attract my attention. i just speechless, the atmosphere filled by their shouted. Hahaha, guess what? i feel such like "damn they gonna being scolded by teacher then"

Reach in front of the door, i knocked out about twice of times. My heart just about to ruptured due to unbearable nervous. I can't get on my nerves. Without waiting too long, Teacher opened up the door, shocked with my appearance in front of her door. What can i said that, she not even recognized my voice. that's was i sad about. I was shaking hand and hug with her, i unable to forget this moment. i just like 'seriously' when she used to joke with me about "the incoming message" as she thought that i was show off the message from Cikgu Maz***. OMG nope laaaa. Then, i wished upon Happy Teacher's Day and i stated that i didn't brought any gift to be given, however she said that i'm now just not like me before when i was in secondary school whereas i used to give her a gift. Previously, i loved to give her a present from any value, just to show my appreciation towards her throughout kindness. Teacher afterward laughed out. This really relive us back to the old memories. And i knew that i can't left my past, any part of.

Teacher said that she wanna to be out, to buy a things for tomorrow's celebration so that we just ended up our conversation. i miss her damn much! how i wish to turn back the times when everything seem okay.

To conclude, i miss her so much, i used to share my stories with her and bravely i said that she's the one that also knows every stories along my lifetime, my journey. Hopefully this kind of relationship will be a long lasting.

thanks for reading my frivolous writing ahaks !

much love.

no useless condemn on appearance

hello guys

in some cases, we need to be an ordinary in person. it is okay to be extraordinary but only on excuses (etc: extraordinary in spiritual). why i has to talk about this things? Referring to my situation whereas i'd been sneered upon my physical look. yaaayyy i know i'm not so adorable and beautiful just like others or even they are also flawless yet i'm too much imperfect that cannot be proud of. Frankly speak, i am an average young lady that exactly not djghsghsdfkasnfkasjfh *loss a word to describe*. Thus, i am not a sort of "beautiful girl around the world" though some people might said "ohh nik please do not be that such of humble person". The issue was when there's someone that used to condemned me on terms of my appearance. The funny thing here is, is that they perfect enough?

Nahh, what was Quran said 'bout condemning anyone else. As a human being, exactly been created by Allah, don't you think that we are common in aspect of standard? so how could you loved to curse other? till this extend, reflects back on our life, is it fair enough in some odd that we used to belittle the Allah's creation? please do not offend others. All of us are equal. We entitled to live without interference from the cuss words. i know it's hard to change but at least it worth to try. Me also feel that kinds of depression when people talk bad about me so thus, i will not let other feel what i had go through before. In shaa Allah, i will watch over my words.


(it is true that nobody is perfect but “Nobody is perfect” is only a fact, it should never be an excuse for making careless mistakes)

memories created on my attachment's program

let's the pictures speak for itself 

these were on my practical at High Court Kuantan

Alhamdulillah , everything goes smoothly 

we also got high marks from the supervisor's evaluation

thank you upon all of the easement provided :)

human

i'm only a human
just a human being
my organ consists of blood
not a mechanical machine
i having a feeling
i'm not been programming

i do feel hurt
i do feel the heartbreak
i do feel the depress
i do feel the disappointment

i am a human
i ain't the robot
i do live my life
nothing to gives unless love

sincerely me
nick

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