dream big and shine on !

Monday 15 December 2014

unemployed - freedom

hi !
i'm back. i'm single and i'm free.
it's hard to make yourselves always right on the track but somehow, its the best idea to astray from it by the way.

okay let me clear myself,

i'm quit from my tired-yet-best job in which back then i was a MIS, sorts of clerk but close to assistant of manager. MIS defined as management information systems where the job's scopes including to ensure the smoothness of system that operates in that particular place, in simple, anything regarding IT.  hell yeah i'm ZERO about IT, i'm only expert on social networking i guess LOL. by the way, it was not as difficult as i might thought, after 3 days been there, i knew how it's works, i knew how to run the system and so on. gladly i'm not turning everything into a muddle hahaha even though there was a rough time whereas my tears burst out finally (unforgettable moment of being scolded by the other staff). my last day went awesome where my manager gave unexpected gift. sentimental enough ! few weeks before my retirement, some of staffs treated me and asked for any adjournment, i'm be blessed by having those people actually, easy to lend hands whenever i need. but till now i still contacting with most of them.

then,

i think this is the right time to let some people go. it's hard tho but i need to as seems that my life completely destructed by only keeping them up. even they are significant to my life, i hope that slowly i may forget them. it is not by the way of immature, i'm not justify what i'm gonna do but it is kind of respecting myself. pity for my bent, hurts and crooked heart. as far as i'm concerned, i'm not that kind of strong enough. i'm crying inside, whenever i'm alone, tears easily flows down from my eyes. the hurt hurts.

in shaa Allah,

i may be free from any overly-attached to people. i hope so. pity me for being to loyal. but of course sorry for those who can't appreciate everything

Wednesday 10 December 2014

immersed in my own thoughts

Hey it's me

Totally pathetic me

I'm helpless, to re-build myself

Where someone seems to hate me

The one who i really care about.

Enough with words, when the talks is helpless

Bye for my hardest goodbye, it is the time to really let u go.

zikrullah pada Maha Pencipta