Is Malaysia an Islamic State?

For answering that question, Malaysia is a country that is in between of Islamic state and Secular state due to some reason. First and foremost, definition of a country to be an Islamic state are according to various Muslim Scholars: Firstly, according to Muhammad bin Hasan Asy Syaibani stated that “The state controlled and ruled by Muslims and Muslims enjoyed peace and tranquility in it." Then, based from Muhammad Abu Zuhrah "The Islamic State is a state that is under the dominion of Islam. Strength and its defense dominated by Muslims. Such countries must be maintained by each and every Muslim". Another character of an Islamic State is where Syariah law is being enforced and implemented all over the territories.  From the definition above, it can be said that Malaysia is an Islamic state as Muslims are the controlling party and the Head of Government and Head of Nation are Muslim. After that, Muslims citizen enjoy and freely practicing Islam. But as in the context of implementation of Syariah Law (Islamic Law), we are not enforcing Syariah Law fully in our nation. Besides, Islamic law only applicable in personal matters such as marriage, divorce and inheritance. It is conclude under state matter, not being a paramount rule as federal constitution. Malaysia it's just an ordinary state that recognizes Islam as the official religion of the country.

To support that statement, Article 3 of the Federal Constitution states that Islam is the religion of the Federation. But other religions may be practiced in peace and harmony in any part of the Federation. So Malaysia can’t be a secular state by virtue of having an established religion. It is worth mentioning that there is no authentic interpretation of the Constitution in Malaysia and somehow word "Islam is the religion of the Federation" in the Constitutional translated incorrectly as "Islam is the base religion of the Federation".

If we refer to cases decided in court in Malaysia there are a number of old cases that give meaning to narrow the word "Islam is the religion of the Federation". In the case of Che Omar bin Che Soh v Public Prosecutor [1988] 2 MLJ 55 the arguments made on behalf of the appellants is the death penalty mandatory for trafficking in dangerous drugs and possession of firearms is against the teachings of Islam and therefore null and void. Argued that because Islam is the official religion, the death sentence imposed on the offense, not offense, "hudud" or "qisas" according to Islamic law, is contrary to the teachings of Islam and therefore invalid under the Constitution. Although Salleh Abas, the chief justice at the time, when giving judgment no doubt have said Islam is not just a set of beliefs and ritual alone but is a complete way of life that includes all areas of human practice, whether private or public, on the legal, political , economic, social, cultural, moral or judicial, and how to set up all manner of life including the laws and morals are guided by the revelation of God found in the Quran and the hadith of the Prophet but he asked the meaning of Islam is that intended by the makers of the Constitution? He has refer to the history of British entry in Malaysia as occupiers for which they have divided religions into two types, one in personal matters and in terms of the public. In all areas including administrative law and justice, they have waived Islam and apply secular manner. Therefore only Islamic law on family and inheritance are allowed and then only apply to Muslims. Results from the British colonial era, Islamic law has been isolated in a narrow range on the law of marriage, divorce and inheritance. This is the meaning of "Islam" which intended by the makers of the Constitution. The decision of this case is an important statement of the status of Islam. Although recent times have seen the “islamisation” of the nation, the case provides a clear view that Malaysia is not an Islamic state but a secular state with Islamic characteristics and bias.

According to the Article 11(1) stated that every person has the right to profess and practice his religion and, subject to Clause (4), to propagate it. It is clear from the provisions that the Muslims have the right to profess and practice his religion, namely Islam as their way of life. Clause (4) stipulates that the law can be made to control or restrict the propagation of any belief among persons professing the religion of Islam.

On the other hand, in the interpretation of the constitution as that found in Article 160, Islamic law is not explicitly included in the definition. Provisions just mentioned, "By including statutory, common law, insofar as they apply in the federal or any part thereof and any custom or usage having the force of law in the federal or any part thereof. (Reference: Introduction to Islamic Law in Malaysia; Mahmood Zuhdi - Publisher UM) Former Chief Justice, Tun Muhammad Suffian hasyim stated goal of Islam (the religion of the federation) was originally incorporated solely for the ceremony, for example, to allow prayer to be read in the official ceremonies such as the coronation of Yang Dipertuan Pertuan Agong, Independence Day and other occasions. (Reference: Muhammad Suffian Hashim, Tun (1962).

 What comes second is, approach to add “official” word is merely a political strategy when the nation gained independence and dealing with emergencies resulting from a communist threat that do not believe in god. For the avoidance of non-Muslim communities continue to abstain from participating in the new government, then such an approach made by politicians at the time. Based on the belief that the behavior has continued to spread secular ideas in the administration of the State. Principles and teachings of Islam are not able to control and monitor the activities of government and state whether in policy or law.

In conclusion, even though Islam as a religion is accepted by the federal constitution, but the reception does not make Islam as the Law of Nation. The word "official" is just a bonus, but its impact has been misleading all parties and create the wrong impression about the position of Islam in the country is to become "Malaysia is a secular democratic state with Islam as the official religion." The fact that these three words: democracy, secular and officially do not exist at all in the Constitution.

p/s: some opinions may vary that regard Malaysia is an Islamic state. well it falls upon our own judgment and opinion then :)

don't chase a rabbit

hi, it's been a while dah tak menulis dalam blog ni
tuntutan study required my whole focus on it so yeah
jarang dah update
lately i've been thinking la kan
for this point of my life
it's not worth la mengharapkan orang untuk terus berada dalam hidup saya
selama mana pun kita cuba untuk hold someone, makin jauh dia akan pergi
it's like macam kita pegang landak
makin lama kita genggam, makin sakit tangan sendiri or for worse, tangan akan berdarah
same goes to hold our anger, makin lama simpan makin teruk amarah
i can't force someone to stay any longer, either don't have any choices,
better to let them go
biarkan orang lain bebas sebab mungkin keberadaan kita takkan menyenangkan mereka
jadi, saya minta maaf
saya mungkin annoyingly hantar rampaging whatsapp or so on
saya mungkin kacau masa-masa sengkang anda
dan saya juga mungkin buatkan anda rasa rimas
atau bak kata orang terengganu "nyekik"
saya minta maaf
at this point, saya dah letih dan nyata kegusaran tentang kehilangan tu perit
tapi pahit nya tetap kena telan
i don't even want to chase a rabbit
apa yang pergi tu biarlah jadi kenangan.
moga anda-anda yang saya sayang tu terus bahagia dalam rahmat Allah

adjourned.

not broken just bent

i have done my best, i had studied very hard and done my utmost for the diploma, now i let Allah do the rest. people keep asking me why, i just told them it's Allah plan. He setting me right. tahu tak, aku rasa aku termasuk dalam orang2 yang beruntung sebab Dia uji aku dengan ujian ni. kemungkinan kalau tak diuji macam ni, mungkin aku makin sombong, siapa tahu kan. bukan aku nak berlagak dengan rasa i'm feel so blessed, tapi cuba nak positifkan diri supaya hanya fikirkan yang baik2, lebih2 lagi tentang Dia, Dia nak aku kembali, kembali pada fitrah. bersangka baiklah dengan Dia. actually, aku ni seorang yang jenis nak defend diri aku daripada sakitnya sebuah sangkaan so aku lebih berfikir negatif, ye aku pelik tapi that's me. dah lama aku hidup dengan cara ni, tapi sekarang Allah nak 'tunjukkan' yang berpemikiran negatif tu slow2 merosakkan dalaman aku, sebab jiwa dipenuhi dengan negativity. and being positive is indeed amazed me! kekuatan tu ada pada setiap masalah, cuma kita yang perlu 'buka mata' supaya nampak yang setiap sesuatu tu ada kebaikan, kekuatan yang terselit. tengok semua yang terjadi dari sudut yang positif, dan kita tak kan menyalahkan takdir. mungkin juga ni jawapan kepada semua doa aku. Dia tak bagi dari cara yang aku mahu, tapi Dia bagi apa yang aku perlukan melalui caraNya. so kat sini, positif lah even masalah mengelilingi dan mencekik anda.

off topic kejap, 2014 kelmarin nak pasang braces tapi terpaksa hold dulu sebab gum problem and ada 1 gigi aku ni kena buat root treatment, doc kata kena buat tapi tak nak buat takpe sebab dia dah tampal tapi akan mengundang masalah suatu hari nanti. tapi aku terlampau lampau takut nak buat root treatment tu, aku tanya doc tu sakit tak? lethal tak? what if saya mati masa operation? sakit tu akan berpanjangan selama berapa hari? saya boleh makan lagi tak? (banyak lagi soalan out of sense) percayalah yang aku pun tak percaya aku tanya soalan bodoh hahaha *nangis*, doc tu punyalah gelak sampai berhenti kejap untuk tarik nafas. dia cakap sebelum treatment tu, patient tu akan dibius dulu. tapi aku tak boleh la, aku takut benda2 yang berkaitan gigi sebab rasa imminent danger tu. memang dari zaman tadika lagi aku dah lari dari doc gigi, takut nau nak buat check up gigi. padahal check up je pun tapi phobia laaaaaa *defend diri* hahaha now bila gigi dah tak comel molek mula lah menyesal tak sudah. patutnya aku dah pasang braces masa sekolah lagi tapi masa tu pun takut melampau, bila sampai klinik gigi tu automatik perut rasa macam ada rama2 mengamuk, muka pun pucat je, pernah jugak masa sebelum spm, aku teman kawan aku pergi klinik gigi, sampai depan pintu tu lutut mengeletar, jalan pun slow motion je lepastu kawan aku tu tegur apesal muka pucat semacam. gila nak bagitahu dia, kemungkinan kalau balik asrama mesti kena menganjing habis-habisan, so aku action la macam takde apa2. even cerita ni takde kena mengena dengan initial story tapi bagi aku, yes cerita yang kedua ni pun ada pengajaran yang maybe aku seorang je yang paham. taught me to be dauntless, sebab ketakutan tu hanya menyebabkan kita terlepas peluang dan we kneel to our own weakness. tunduk pada kelemahan. at last kita juga yang rugi. so unleash your valor/bravery/courage and beat it up!

adjourned.

i am alive

Assalamualaikum

whoever out there who facing whatever problem which seems so stale and can't be solved, please remember that the test are meant to be a blessing in disguise. when He says no to something, He says yes to something even greater. i don't even know how my life could turn to be like this. tak pernah terbayang yang dengan keputusan kemasukan uni yg aku dapat tu boleh buat my world in topsy turvy. sejujurnya, aku menangis for almost a week. and i've been questioning myself tak pandai sangat ke aku ni, aku tak layak ke, kenapa aku bla...bla...bla...macam tak percaya dengan takdir and jalan hidup aku sendiri. and bayangkan how devastated i was bila my bestfriends yang bertiga lagi tu dapat degree in law unisza jugak, they will be a classmate. i was like what the fish is going on? sedih gila tuhan je tahu, rasa pointless je hidup aku that moment and somehow i had isolated myself from everyone else. one night, i lay on my bed, not intended to sleep yet, just staring pointlessly at the ceiling, wonder what the whole world might do. drowned deep into my imagination, then something, a thought just hit me abruptly, kind of whisper that whispering me a motivation, for me to wake up and see everything in the best way that they should be. for me to have a faith towards Allah, for his plan over me is the greatest plan. He loves me and i am strong enough so that He knows that i'm capable to go through this. i felt that i have that strength to head up facing entirely a new day ahead. that mystical amuse which i felt that "nahhh, why should i cry over spilled milk?". my eyes teary, not over the sadness that i felt entire week, but because i have let myself not believing in Allah, not putting 100% of confidence towards His planning and capability of. my biggest regret i ought to admit. i don't know how to explain all of this but i know, He is setting everything right. i need to be cool and relax. apart from that, He helps me all this while through another method, speaking of which, He channeling His help towards someone else. i'm glad that everyone i spoke to, end up come out with solutions, advises, and even physically helping me regarding my rayuan things. right at the moment, i know that there's nothing beyond repair. what i need to do is do my best for my rayuan and be gratitude over everything. that was the utmost important. i woke up the day after, Alhamdulillah i'm fine, i'm willing to do anything for seeking a happiness for myself. i know He has prepared something to me, that even bigger and of course the best. these days have been just hard for me but i'm glad that i regain some strength and motivation for me walking in this garden of  thorny roses. perceive misfortunes in some way leads us to another best path that we never think of. keep it subtle and be cool !

trip to sabah ?

hi

malam ni 3/3/2015 gamat group WhatsApp (wasep) Gorgeous Typo Chicks *nama group ni bersempena dengan ahli2 nya yang kuat typo* dengan perbincangan nak travel. sebelum ni pun ada dah rancang nak ke Sabah dalam bulan 5-6 ni, tapi tetibe sume macam diam je, takde sapa trigger balik wanderlust tu. then malam ni sarah wasep cakap yang dia duk belek2 web airasia bagai so airasia buat promotion sampai bulan 5 ni, tiket pergi balik and stay 3 days 2 nights + tax just cost about RM2++ gitu je ke gold coast, perth, sabah, bali n apa tah aku tak ingat dah. gempak gila and of course murah gila, mana nak dapat murah macam tu. ika suggest nak ke gold coast, isha nak ke krabi tapi yang paling acceptable gi sabah jela. yet still best n sejuk. ingat nak backpack je, jimat, then kat sana boleh tumpang rumah ekin. dorang sume dah bincang nak makan megi je kat sana hahahaha  *nangis* so memasing dah plan kumpul duit dari sekarang. aku mengharap sangat plan ni menjadi, dah lama travelling ni masuk dalam wishlist aku, kebetulan pulak dapat kengkawan yang gila travel jugak so mengena jugak kat situ. actually aku dengan ika nak sangat travel ke negara sejuk yang ada salji, nak main salji, nak bina snowman, nak main ice skating versi turun bukit bersalji. nakkkkk sangat. kalo gi Seattle ada salji and boleh singgah Niagara Fall or else buat terjun tiruk kat texas river ke, gila lawaaaaaa sungai tu, tak silap aku nama sungai tu Jacob Well, bentuk sungai tu bukan memanjang tapi kedalam yang sedalam 30 kaki macam perigi gitu. hahahaha. angan angan tinggi menggunung, kalau jatuh ni sakit. tapi tolong la, aku punya semangat nak travel ni membuak2 sangat, tak sabar nak kerja, kumpul duit, gi travel, belajar sejarah negara orang *tetiba sangat* berbalik pada Sabah, best jugak sabah weh, dulu senior aku penah backpack ke sana, dorang snorkeling siap main dengan ikan nemo lagi kau. pantai dia pun cantik and bersih. then dorang ke kaki gunung kinabalu, kat situ dah macam kat new zealand. ahhhhhhhhhh bestnyaaaaaaaa. nak mendaki gunung kinabalu then pacak bendera yang tertulis "group Gojes Typo Chicks disini" or "Nik Syahirah been here" hahaha kemain. ni semua disebabkan faktor tak dapat jadi ahli astronomi sebab malas belajar dulu (cita2 nak ke planet mars then pacak bendera or paling koman sentuh bintang Taurus) merepeknya lahhhh aku ni. ok back to the topic, sebelum ni aku ada usahakan untuk sambung undergraduate ke Australia, tak ingat part mana, tapi lepas aku tanya tcr Hasilah, dia suggest untuk belajar degree dalam Malaysia then bila buat Master baru ke oversea. so takpelah KIV dulu plan tu. aku teringin nak ke UK, cardiff especially. bestnya. tak pun ke bucharest, romania, uncle aku ada sorang kat sana, kiranya mudah la nak gi tapi kena usahakan tambang tiket pergi balik ke sana. in shaa Allah boleh je kalau kuat azam tu and usaha. tapi yang penting, semua tu atas rezeki dari Allah, perancangan Allah lagi hebat mengatasi perancangan manusia. kalau dah tertulis itu rezeki kita, in shaa Allah benda tu akan datang dari jalan yang tak disangka2. to sum up, in shaa Allah aku akan bekerja keras untuk kumpul duit ke sabah ni, sarah pun cakap camtu so lagi la encourages untuk work harder. in shaa Allah nak pergi before memasing naik degree bulan 9 ni. last words, hargailah kecantikkan nature, alam sekeliling tu sangat menyenangkan *tetibe* . ok lah bye ! doakan aku tau, at least aku dapat pergi mekkah sebelum mati *this should be a priority* . Aamiin, tata . stay bless everybody !


p/s: sorry seorang Nik suka bercerita ceriti
p/p/s: sorry kalau *or memang* penulisan macam budak tak matang, ni kes terlampau excited

Sabah bah

i'm sorry and i mean it

Assalamualaikum

tcr yanti i'm so sorry for what had been happening. this misunderstanding was going too far, somehow, maybe i'm letting u down by my bad behavior. frankly speaking, i'm not the one who divulges that info to others. beforehand, i did Facebook it, about ur trip in which merely a status without any details then the next day i already took it down as i knows that u dislike ur privacy goes viral or been told or something like that, assuring that others didn't know about ur trip unless smarian. that's it. i'm not making a fuss about it. i'm respecting ur space, ur pivacy and i'm respecting that u dislike the idea of disclosing everything. i don't know how another teacher knowing all of this thing, because among my facebook's friends, none is teacher from another school. i don't know anyone else. meanwhile, i have been friend with smkpj's teachers but i didn't meet them for this period. besides, i really didn't go out or met anyone. there's no way that i've told them. believe me that i'm not telling everybody about ur matters. pertaining to the smar's blog, i'm doesn't even know about the existence of that particular blog until i had seen that on facebook lately so i guess there are lots of people that might visited it right before me. apart from that, regarding to my negative thinking, i'm sorry for misunderstanding u for this while, yes i am a negative thinker, i'm never learn anything, but believe me, those negativities keeps me apart from my ego, or being over confident that i'm haven't hurt someone or mess up everything. it is true what u said before, if i wanna make my life at ease, i need to be positive so that's how we learn, always learn. i guess i never learn at all, i'm full of negativity tcr, i couldn't make it. i hate that as part of my weakness. i know that i'm a bit of overreaction over u texts, but i should say it long before, that i'm always bothering u and maybe make u annoyed with me. again, sorry for the negative mind. i ever thought u were getting annoyed by the day, like i'm constantly annoying u. thus, it leads me to think that u slowly hate me that i'm snooping into ur business. i can feel that u haven't trusted me ever since. i'm sorry for turns everything into a muddle. after all, life must go on, and i'm truly sorry for anything that i've done from back then. i'm full of flaws, in shaa Allah i will change myself to a better person from now on, or at least should be an optimist, i won't prolong my weakness all over again or fool around like before. thank you from the bottom of my heart for spattered ur inspire words, it was simple yet profound.

i'm sorry for making things hard
i'm sorry for passing difficulties instead of extending love

p/s: don't worry, no one knows about this blog too
pp/s: i love u tcr, forgive me
ppp/s: am i being paranoid ?
pppp/s: tcr comel la mse tcr cakap "tcr dh beli sweater snow, kasut snow" hahaha

this is for you

hi tcr yanti !

i don't know what to talk about

i'm hoping that u're doing fine there at Washington

be safe and stay healthy

take care very well please 

enjoys ur moment there by creating the best memory

whatever it is, i'm gonna praying for ur best, always

i'm sorry for my rampaging texts, specifically on WhatsApp

i'm sorry for bothering u while u're doing ur works 

i'm sorry for overly attached

btw, i hope that u safely return to Malaysia 

really i don't want anything else unless that u're safely arrived 

there's something that i need to tell u beforehand

about 2-3 weeks before ur departure to US

i'm having bad dreams about u

i'm scared if something really happened to u

and i'm intending not to tell u that night before ur departure

because i didn't want to scare u and have a thought about that 

since u're already feeling unease to leave 

hoping that bad things just came across my mind without nothing implied at all

may Allah keeps u safe wherever u are

love

bangunlah matahari, sinari kami lagi

Assalamualaikum ifah,
nukilan ni ikhlas dari hati buat ifah
insan yang bernama Nurzulfa Afifah
walau kat mana ifah berada, doa saya sentiasa dengan awak

ifah, dah tiga tahun kita kenal antara satu lain
seronok berkawan dengan ifah
ifah jujur, ifah ikhlas tika bercakap
ifah sentiasa senyum, ifah tak pernah marah2
ifah sangat baik hati
jujur tak pernah saya jumpa seorang ifah yang sangat baik

ifah sangat ceria, saya suka tengok ifah senyum dengan gigi besi tu
walaupun kita dulunya lain2 kelas masa diploma law dulu
tapi kita borak macam kita dah lama kenal
macam2 kita borak
kita sembang pasal muet, pasal study n everything lah
kita tak rapat mana ifah, tapi kita selalu bercerita
kita berhubung selalunya guna media social twitter
saya suka bila ifah kongsi pengalaman duduk kat luar negara
mulanya saya cemburu dengan ifah, sebab saya rasa hidup ifah perfect
ifah dapat band 5 dalam muet, yang mana saya betul2 nakkan
ifah dapat samsung note 3 masa awal2 direleased, yang saya usaha kumpul duit untuk beli
ifah dapat pindah ke Seattle,US, itu impian saya dari dulu untuk travel ke luar negara
ifah sangat kaya, ifah selalu dapat apa yang ifah nak
banyak yang saya cemburukan ifah
tapi hakikatnya, siapa tahu apa ujian yang ifah lalui
perit jerih ifah, tak terbayang dek fikiran

ifah, maafkan saya sebab cemburu dengan rezeki ifah
maafkan saya sebab tak pernah tahu pun kesakitan yang ifah hidapi
yang terlayar diwajah ifah hanya kegembiraan
sementara ifah sengsara pada dasarnya
ifah
saya sangat terkejut bila tahu ifah ada positive benign brain tumor
seakan tak percaya dengan berita tu
rasanya baru semalam saya dengar gelak tawa ifah
rasanya baru semalam saya dengar suara ifah
rasanya baru semalam saya dengar ifah bercerita
rasanya baru semalam ifah bagi tips2 muet dekat saya
rasanya baru semalam......
sekarang ifah dah koma selama 18 hari pada tarikh saya tulis post ni

ifah, sebelum awak deactive twitter dan social media yang lain
saya pernah terperasan dengan tweet2 awak
awak cakap awak sakit
awak berdoa Allah kuatkan seorang ifah
awak cerita awak terlajak tido
awak cakap awak tak layak untuk kebahagiaan
ifah, maafkan saya sebab tak sedar yang awak merintih sakit
maafkan saya sebab tak tanya khabar berita awak
maafkan saya sebab tak peduli
maafkan saya sebab saya rasa awak sihat macam biasa
maafkan saya ifah

ifah, saya sangat terkesan dengan semua yang berlaku
sayang saya pada awak tak terucap
saya rindu awak
awak bangunlah dari lena awak tu
awak tak penat ke tido lama2 ?
awak, ramai tunggu awak bangun
saya bukanlah keutamaan tapi saya mengharap awak ingat saya juga
bila awak bangun nanti

ifah, kalau awak di Malaysia, sungguh saya akan usaha untuk lawat awak
tapi awak jauh kat sana
saya takde sumber untuk berhubung secara terus dengan awak
saya hanya tunggu berita dari kawan2 kita
ifah, saya rindu awak
saya rindu nak dengar awak bercerita pasal US
saya rindu nak tengok awak post gambar kat instagram
saya seronok tengok awak enjoy dekat sana
ifah, saya merayu, awak bangunlah
kuatkan semula jiwa kami ifah
tengoklah kawan2 kita yang lain, semuanya sayu dan bermuram durja
awak tengoklah juga keluarga awak
saya pasti awak faham apa perasaan mereka, awak cukup bijak ifah
ifah, awak sentiasa dalam doa saya, dalam doa kami
saya berdoa agar awak kuat untuk lawan penyakit awak
saya berdoa agar awak bangun dan bergembira
saya berdoa agar awak sentiasa dalam keredhaan Allah
saya berdoa agar awak sentiasa dirahmati Yang Maha Esa

ifah, saya tak bersedia untuk kehilangan awak suatu hari nanti
tapi jiikalau takdir Allah mengatasi segala-galanya
saya reda ifah, saya tak nak tengok awak derita lagi
saya reda sebab Allah lebih sayangkan awak
saya reda sebab awak akan berada dalam dakapan Allah, jauh dari kesengsaraan
saya reda sebab saya tahu awak akan temui bahagia
saya reda sebab awak terlindung dari fitnah dunia

saya sayang awak, kawan :")
bangunlah ifah
saya nak awak bangun dan kembali normal semula
awak muda lagi, baru 21 tahun
mesti awak teringin untuk berkerja dan dapat gaji best2
mesti awak nak balas jasa ibu bapa awak
mesti awak nak tunaikan janji2 awak pada kawan2 kita
mesti awak nak bergembira dengan kawan2
dan paling utama, mesti awak nak tingkatkan ibadah awak pada Allah
saya pasti banyak yang awak nak buat pada umur ni
jadi ifah, tolonglah bangun
jangan tido lama2


ifah :'"(

pembolehubah bergerak balas

books teleporting me to another life

lately, or else sejak 2 tahun setengah yang lalu, i'm gaining my love towards law's books
seronok la baca buku law, rasa macam i've been in another galaxy gituh
percaya atau tak, to be frank aku ni agak kaki buku jugak, pantang nampak buku mesti nak baca
tapi bukanlah seorang ulat buku, mostly aku suka baca buku fiction, lebih kepada sci-fiction bukanlah romance fiction. aku tak minat pasal relationship ni.
aku lebih sukakan buku ilmiah macam buku pasal sejarah, ketamadunan, politik etc. sokmonya bila jumpa orang2 lain, borak2 pasal buku ke apa mesti dorang cakap "nerd lah awak"
caittt , belum kenal lagi aku ni macam mana
pasal buku law tu, makin banyak aku membaca, makin banyak yang aku tak tahu sama macam aku buat latihan pengukuhan untuk English. macam "what the fishhh apa aku baca ni"
biasalah, buku akan buka 'mata' kita untuk lihat dunia dari pelbagai perspektif
kekadang aku terpikir jugak, how could be the writer menulis pasal dunia yang tak ter'discover' ni
but bila dah makin dewasa ni, i knows that was because of we have our own opinions, so Alhamdulillah aku hormati setiap pandangan orang dengan cara baca buku, kiranya simbolik kat sini yang bila kita banyak membaca, pandangan orang tu kita akan terima-pakai dalam kehidupan kita
in which implement apa prinsip yang tertulis then interpret dalam life kita sendiri.
macam buku law, memang wajib ada pelbagai pandangan dari pelbagai pihak, kadang2 bercanggah dari satu sama lain tapi sedar atau tak, benda2 tu semualah yang mencantikkan lagi sistem perundangan kita, the beauty of law. and setiap perspektif tu akan menyumbang ke arah kehidupan yang lebih baik. kiranya bila ada percanggahan, kita akan comes out with solutions where the outcomes tu diambil daripada yang terbaik , contohnya kalau ada 2 pendapat bercanggah, kita pertimbangkan keduanya then buat satu kata putus dari keduanya, ambil pendapat A sikit , ambil pendapat B sikit.

hahaha, actually, i'm gratitude that aku belajar law, i feel that it's changes me a lot, paling ketara dari segi kematangan, yeke ? haha tapi i feel it. aku dapat rasa aku banyak berubah, macam aku dapat 'jiwa' yang baru. besides, buku2 pun banyak merubah cara pemikiran aku

haza min fadhli rabbi , semuanya berbalik kepada Allah
Allah yang hadirkan rasa untuk berubah ni, Allah jugak yang bagi hidayah untuk kita ubah diri, moga Allah pelihara

kepada sesiapa yang terbaca nukilan aku kat blog ni, it's never too late to change ourselves to the better us. cuba cari pemangkin yang dapat ubah kita.

start with Allah
stay with Allah
end with Allah

adjourned,
little me.

nightmare bad dream

Assalamualaikum
hi there !

peachy je style tulis 'hi there' tu, kihkih tapi buat masa sekarang even serabut-mabut stress bagai tapi still boleh handle sebab takde la teruk sangat, takat ni UPU degree intake je yang duk merunsingkan minda. boleh la nak dikatakan sekarang happy je.

and pasal touching dengan tcr yanti tu pun den dah lupakan, gila kau nak terasa lama2. even aku ni bukan lah sapa2 nak terasa dengan dia, and dia ada points untuk marah back then.

actually point yang aku nak ceritakan is semalam, aku ada termimpi pasal tcr yanti. seram jugak bila pikir balik. okayy den cerita panjang lebar kehh.

memula camni, aku mimpi aku lepak rumah tcr yanti that day, tah aku tolong dia buat kerja apa tah, seingat aku macam tolong dia key-in something dalam system guna laptop. pastu tengah bercakap2 dengan tcr hasilah tetiba ada budak aspuri datang ketuk pintu rumah dia, masa tu awal pagi. tapikan hebat kot mimpi aku siap ada details bagai, and borak dengan tcr hasilah tu yang epic sebab aku ingat lagi dalam realiti aku pernah borak2 dengan dia dalam keadaan yang sama. plot twist ! pastu petang sikit, tcr yanti ajak keluar yang aku tak tahu we ols kemana, tapikan yang lawak both of us free hair, macam 'amboi free hair keluar berjalan' hahahahahahaha, mimpikan, mestilah illogical sikit. masa nak keluar dari rumah dia, tcr hasilah takde pun dalam layar mimpi tu, malahan sebelum tu pun ustazah mazlita tak muncul tho in fact dorang bertiga dok sekali. then, masa tcr drive tu ada la 2-3 orang budak aspuri duk depan kereta tu tapi tcr yanti tak sempat langgar, dorang ada cakap "sape sebelah tcr yanti tu? dorang nak kemana?" hahaha tak tahan betul dialog tu. sambung balik, pastu kami gi restoran yang aku tak tahu kat mana, tak dapat nak recall, seingat aku kami makan2 then naik kereta balik pastu tcr yanti drive ke somewhere yang agak remote then we fall off from the cliff. tu jela, pastu aku terbangun. haaa gittew.

yang selebihnya aku dah tak ingat , betul la orang cakap bila 5 minit kita dah bangun, 50% je yang akan kita ingat, 95% akan hilang lepas 10 minit. ni fakta psikologi.

btw, tak kisah la mimpi ni ada sebarang petanda ke tak, den sokmo akan doakan kesejahteraan tcr yanti even kat mana saja dia berada, hoping that sesuatu yang buruk takkan berlaku kat diri dia or aku sendiri, after all, of course aku doakan jugak buat guru2 aku yang lain...family jangan tanya! absolutely aku sentiasa doakan depa. biar kita bermurah dengan doa sebab mungkin itu je yang mampu kita bagi buat orang2 yang kita sayang.

p/s: jangan lupa sebelum tido basuh kaki ye and minum air suam!


xoxo,
little me.

the brand new me

Assalamualaikum

lately i'm being so emotional lahhh, really can't control myself and so sorry for my harsh words that had been uttered. i know there's somebody out there who might be hurts by my words indeed. believe me, anger had spoken on behalf of me. now i'm calming myself and ain't let my emotion exaggerated till becoming not who i really am, all out of the world. nonetheless thanks for those who stays with me even at my worst, thousand of thanks for the advise and ideas for me to take this journey to another days ahead. i really appreciate persons who remain stay no matter what, even i hurts them very well.

for the mean time, am kinds of 'redha' for what had been in which makes my world completely in topsy turvy. my mom ever said that when we're just accepting the hard times passed that hit our faces, then Allah will substitutes it with even more better than before. just don't mind, stop thinking about 'what if' 'what if' thingy and move on to the next chapter, come out with solutions is the best by the way.

yeahhh, rock on nik because the boiling water either soften the potato or harden the egg. same goes to when hard situation hits you, either make you weak or strengthen you as wholly. i choose this bad things that happened to strengthen me from my innermost, all out and affecting my attitude. believing in myself that i could build a castle out of all the bricks of failure.

leads a positive life and spread the positive vibe

enough is enough

dah-dah la tu nik, orang tak appreciate kau , so move on jela
sibuk nak mengadah tu apehal ?
stop caring too much, even 10 tahun lagi pun belum tentu orang sedar
nak tunggu kau mati dulu kot baru nak menghargai
itu pun kalau nasib baik la
tapi buat apa nak dikenang2 kau tu.
kau pun tak habis2 duk sibukkan hidup orang
diri sendiri pun tak terurus, ada hati nak menyibuk
who ought to be blame is all you, semua puncanya dari kau
kalau kau tak sibuk dengan orang lain, takkan jadi masalah sakit hati ni
please make a smart move
lupakan orang lain
they don't even need you !
get rid the root of problem which is overly attached.
senang cerita tak payah nak attach2 dengan orang
orang rasa kau tu menyemak je
stop nampak bodoh and jadi bodoh
stop la rasa sedih bagai
kau tu sapa ?
sampah


INGAT
people won't care people won't care people won't care

p/s: i'm never good enough

it's hurt when the person who you really care about let you down and i choose this situation to strengthen me

i'm really disappointed

future phobia

topik tu tak leh blaaa la.

actually macam ni, bukan phobia sangat cumanya takut la untuk hadapi kenyataan on how i'm gonna create my future. masa depan ni bukan sesuatu perkara yang mudah untuk dibawa main2. salah ukir masa depan, lingkup sampai 7 keturunan. asbabnya kita mungkin akan beranak pinak, ada family, of course la family yang macam mana depends pada apa yang kita lakar pada masa sekarang. hidup ni bukanlah fairytale yang berdurasi selama 2jam30minit yang tuptup dah sampai happy ending. maybe lah kita akan ada happy ending tapi nak dapatkan happy ending tu payah tau tak ! 

apa yang aku cuba nak sampaikan isssss i'm scared that i can't pursue in degree in law because i'm obtained only band 3 in MUET meanwhile i can't retake MUET for this time being in order to pursue degree in 2015 due to the reason that UPU intake starts from 19jan until 6apr 2015. ahhhh lemah ! sedih tau tak. i'm crying for almost 4 nights constantly started from the day when result had been announced. psychologically i'm bent and crook. i go through my day unmotivated, and almost everyday my friends trying to instill back my confidence by convince me that everything in Allah's hand. He knows what i've been through and what i'm up to. they ever said that everything depends on 'rezeki', a gift from above. maybe there are lots of 'hikmah'. gila padu kata2 dorang. seriously, tiap2 hari aku menangis, tiap kali duduk sorang2 dalam bilik mesti overthinking, risau tak dapat sambung law, risau tak dapat band 4, segala benda risau. sumpah. i'm literally broken. i don't have any idea untuk tempuh hari2 mendatang. tulah sebab semua perit tu aku sorang je yang tahu, dan Allah. the day lepas dapat result, i'm trying to lifting my endeavor untuk search requirement U untuk intake course law. cari jugaklah U mana yang ambil band 3. what i know, i can't give up on muet, i haven't seen anything yet beside of law. sayang gila lah masa diploma cgpa aku 3.53, end up tak sambung law, nauzubillah. harap sangat dapat sambung law. my friends asking me for pray harder. in shaa Allah, Allah bantu. i don't have any last resort since belum isi UPU lagi so i lays everything on Allah's hand. in shaa Allah there is any possible ways.

la tahzan, innAllaha ma'aana 

don't be sad, Allah be with us

love,

little me

unemployed - freedom

hi !
i'm back. i'm single and i'm free.
it's hard to make yourselves always right on the track but somehow, its the best idea to astray from it by the way.

okay let me clear myself,

i'm quit from my tired-yet-best job in which back then i was a MIS, sorts of clerk but close to assistant of manager. MIS defined as management information systems where the job's scopes including to ensure the smoothness of system that operates in that particular place, in simple, anything regarding IT.  hell yeah i'm ZERO about IT, i'm only expert on social networking i guess LOL. by the way, it was not as difficult as i might thought, after 3 days been there, i knew how it's works, i knew how to run the system and so on. gladly i'm not turning everything into a muddle hahaha even though there was a rough time whereas my tears burst out finally (unforgettable moment of being scolded by the other staff). my last day went awesome where my manager gave unexpected gift. sentimental enough ! few weeks before my retirement, some of staffs treated me and asked for any adjournment, i'm be blessed by having those people actually, easy to lend hands whenever i need. but till now i still contacting with most of them.

then,

i think this is the right time to let some people go. it's hard tho but i need to as seems that my life completely destructed by only keeping them up. even they are significant to my life, i hope that slowly i may forget them. it is not by the way of immature, i'm not justify what i'm gonna do but it is kind of respecting myself. pity for my bent, hurts and crooked heart. as far as i'm concerned, i'm not that kind of strong enough. i'm crying inside, whenever i'm alone, tears easily flows down from my eyes. the hurt hurts.

in shaa Allah,

i may be free from any overly-attached to people. i hope so. pity me for being to loyal. but of course sorry for those who can't appreciate everything

immersed in my own thoughts

Hey it's me

Totally pathetic me

I'm helpless, to re-build myself

Where someone seems to hate me

The one who i really care about.

Enough with words, when the talks is helpless

Bye for my hardest goodbye, it is the time to really let u go.

topsy turvy

tora datang lagi


lately, serabut sangat dengan workloads, personal problems n urusan konvokesyen bagai
seriously, tak cukup ruang waktu nak fikir semua benda dalam 1 masa
how i wish untuk tak membesar and terus duduk dalam alam student je
luah kat sini bukan untuk merungut, jauh sekali nak mengeluh dengan nasib
tapi paham tak situasi sekarang whereas i can't keep it up for myself yang mana i'm dying inside?
so people might said la kan yang aku ni mengelabah tak tentu hala but come on, i can't bear when the situation getting worst. out of my control.

i'm just 20, baru kenal dunia luar, guide me instead.
i'm crying not because i'm weak
i'm just letting some of it go from keep wandering in my mind,
it's just because i'm hold it for too long, alone.

please lah, don't be such a typical malay yang judgmental tu tak lari dari "eleh, sikit2 nak nangis" "eleh, tu pun tak mampu nak buat"
setiap orang, tak sama ujian yang dey all tanggung even idioms might said otherwise,
still our problems tu different from anyone else so stop judging, u don't know what others get through everyday.
it is considerable lah kalau nak nasihat
even nasihat sekalipun biar kena cara.

i'm sorry for my harsh writing, i'm sick of people who didn't astray from that typical thinking & judgmental.


by the way, we can change, it is up on us


helpless me,
nick

"Innallaha ma'ana"

iftar and sahur with kesayangan

Assalamualaikum and olla peeps !

note:
*this is my last semester for my diploma program, hence all the moments we going through deemed as our very last moments* sobs sobs

Alhamdulillah, rasa sedih sebab tak dapat berbuka dengan famili dineutralisasi oleh bebudak ni. seriously, i bersyukur gila ada they all ni, at least hidup gua ni terisi dengan laughter and joy. thanks korang ! korang memang the best food hunter la.

mostly Ramadan ni, we all berbuka kat rumah je. beli kat bazar then duduk bersila ramai2 dalam bulatan kat ruang tamu. housemates (my classmates/gang actually) ada 7 orang, so memang agak 'gamat' jugak la suasana tu + semuanya ada sense of humour yang tinggi (i sokmo kena bash dengan they all). sambil makan tu mesti ada lawak2 spontaneous out of sense yang keluar , mandatory. hokeh hokeh, boleh kira la berapa kali we all keluar iftar and sahur dengan bebudak rumah cuah (4 of them).

first time: we all iftar kat tappers, kedai makanan western yang affordable. i order chicken schnitzel, air peach and air lemon pebble/bubble/mubble (tah aku tak ingat). total for what i'd ordered almost RM30. nyesal gua tak sudah! tapi superb la serving cafe' tu. memang berbaloi. cafe' tu depan sungai, menarik view kat situ , then depan tu ada macam lampu2 kat i-city shah alam, klon maybe. so mostly orang panggil ICT (ikan celup tepung) ganu. hmmm, alang2 dah bercerita, dikesempatan ni i nak minta maaf kat Ain as we all prank dia dengan sorok handphone. bergelepor jugak dia masa tu. ni semua idea Oni la, tetibe je dia keluar dari cafe' dengan handphone Ain. at last i yang ter'kantoi'kan. by the way, masa ni ika, mctul, ain qibah and isya ikut sekali. masa dalam cafe tu, meja we all yang paling panjang as we all 17 orang kesemuanya. pening2 dah orang2 Tappers tu tambah2 meja.

second time: tah macam mana dapat idea gila nak keluar sahur pukul 3 pagi buta. so we all keluar round2 area gong badak, seberang takir, tok jembal, teluk ketapang (airport) and tah jalan mana cari kedai2 tepi jalan yang bukak. pergi dengan 2 kereta, i of course naik kereta kancil merah jiah dengan Oni, kereta Arina dah tak muat. rasa macam budak nakal sangat wooo as besenya just bebudak laki Unisza je keluar memalam  lepak kat warung untuk tengok bola. pastu pulak we all ni semuanya duduk rumah sewa so not restricted sangat la. whatsoever, we all bukan liar yang jenis suka keluar memalam yang takde pekdah tu, we all just seek for food and for sure for our enjoyment too, besides we all keluar dengan semuanya perempuan, kiranya Girls Day Out la ni. lepas puas dag round2, we all decided nak makan kat warung. so makan memakan lah kami. i order makanan peberet gua *Nasi Goreng Ikan Masin + Sup* dengan air milo + sup. kihkih, i tersilap sebut *as usually*, pe lagi, semuanya bash gua kaw-kaw. i didn't take it as offensive pun, sebabnya i know they all tak berniat pun, semuanya atas tiket gurauan. thus, benda tu merapatkan lagi persahabatan we all even though gurauan we all tu kasar. back to story, we all balik masa tu almost 4.30am. so sampai rumah memang dah tak tidur, takut2 tak bangun untuk solat subuh.

third: we all takdelah keluar pun, just berbuka kat rumah Cuah. we all kumpul duit about RM8.00/person. so geng2 rumah Cuah (Jiah, Fira, Bee) yang in-charge masak2. Fira decided nak masak rendang and sayur goreng. yang geng rumah we all ni in-charge buat air so we buat air koktel. isi dalam air tu banyak gila, tak terhabis pun. after iftar, we all solat berjemaah and then main mercun! eheks. best gila kot. we all beli mercun about RM12, of course, i support for that. memang solely duit i and RM2 added by Sarah. *marah la ibu i if dia tahu ni*.  mercun tu supplied by orang kampung area rumah Cuah, akak tu sengih je we all beli banyak tu, pulak tu, semua ahli rumah dia + mak nenek dia turun tengok we all 'borong' mercun tu. masa tu tak pikir apa dah, tahu nak berseronok-ronak je.

forth: iftar kat Secret Recipe as for hari last sebelum we all balik kampung memasing untuk cuti raya. i order chicken crispy, at first nak order spaghetti or japanese soba, tapi sebab Arina order chicken crispy, i terliur pulak nak makan benda tu. then i order kek chocolate indulgence, ingatkan nak order ice blended butterscotch but akak SR tu cakap dapat air free, so batal niat tu. ingatkan air best, rupanya air sirap yang appearance nya sangatlah memikat hati. whatsoever, syukur Alhamdulillah untuk rezeki hari tu.  pheeeeww. i makan tak habis so that terpaksalah muni, arina and sarah yang men'yettle'kan baki makanan i. adoiii , so sorry, gua ni memang jenis gini. kalau makan tak habis sokmo. gua tak reti. sokay i'll try to change that habit.

last but not least, tu jelah kot we all iftar kat luar. whatsoever, memori tu yang penting. makan apa2 pun tak kisah asalkan ada yang tersayang. i wanna thanks for them.


keh, enjoy the pic. till meet then.


love,
little me.