actually macam ni, bukan phobia sangat cumanya takut la untuk hadapi kenyataan on how i'm gonna create my future. masa depan ni bukan sesuatu perkara yang mudah untuk dibawa main2. salah ukir masa depan, lingkup sampai 7 keturunan. asbabnya kita mungkin akan beranak pinak, ada family, of course la family yang macam mana depends pada apa yang kita lakar pada masa sekarang. hidup ni bukanlah fairytale yang berdurasi selama 2jam30minit yang tuptup dah sampai happy ending. maybe lah kita akan ada happy ending tapi nak dapatkan happy ending tu payah tau tak !
apa yang aku cuba nak sampaikan isssss i'm scared that i can't pursue in degree in law because i'm obtained only band 3 in MUET meanwhile i can't retake MUET for this time being in order to pursue degree in 2015 due to the reason that UPU intake starts from 19jan until 6apr 2015. ahhhh lemah ! sedih tau tak. i'm crying for almost 4 nights constantly started from the day when result had been announced. psychologically i'm bent and crook. i go through my day unmotivated, and almost everyday my friends trying to instill back my confidence by convince me that everything in Allah's hand. He knows what i've been through and what i'm up to. they ever said that everything depends on 'rezeki', a gift from above. maybe there are lots of 'hikmah'. gila padu kata2 dorang. seriously, tiap2 hari aku menangis, tiap kali duduk sorang2 dalam bilik mesti overthinking, risau tak dapat sambung law, risau tak dapat band 4, segala benda risau. sumpah. i'm literally broken. i don't have any idea untuk tempuh hari2 mendatang. tulah sebab semua perit tu aku sorang je yang tahu, dan Allah. the day lepas dapat result, i'm trying to lifting my endeavor untuk search requirement U untuk intake course law. cari jugaklah U mana yang ambil band 3. what i know, i can't give up on muet, i haven't seen anything yet beside of law. sayang gila lah masa diploma cgpa aku 3.53, end up tak sambung law, nauzubillah. harap sangat dapat sambung law. my friends asking me for pray harder. in shaa Allah, Allah bantu. i don't have any last resort since belum isi UPU lagi so i lays everything on Allah's hand. in shaa Allah there is any possible ways.
la tahzan, innAllaha ma'aana
don't be sad, Allah be with us
love,
little me
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